Dinner w/ colleagues
It’s unusual for me to have dinner with colleagues.
After working from home due to COVID-19, I headed to the restaurant, 신세도기, one of my colleagues made a reservation for us. We grilled pork and ate it with side dishes such as pickled radish slices, lettuce and dipping sauces.
For the second round, we had a cup of ice cream for each at 베스킨라빈스31.
For the third round, we went to another restaurant, 와인한잔어때, selling affordable wines and snacks.
They all were delicious. It was also fun because I usually didn’t have time like this. I rarely hang out with people. I might be not good at enjoying my life.
I’m likely to be a listener when people gather at a party. Several words came out from my heart yesterday, but they weren’t enough. It only hurt my feeling.
Do I really live the life that I’ve really looked for? How many people on my side when I’m totally doomed? Can I fall in love again? Can I get married?
Once I get promoted this summer, about five million won is transferred in my bank account no matter how I perform. I don’t think that it is right.
It feels like the more I work here, the less I feel valuable. Maybe I’m taking my life too much serious. I wanted to go to grad school and worked in an international environment. I’ve always longed for having influence so that I can shape this world in a better way.
Successful life is how much I beam and smile everyday. Based on the fact, I’m just a loser. Failure is embedded on my forehead. It is the last thing I wanted to admit.
I’m not satisfied with my life. I don’t want to waste my life anymore. In order to escape from this comforting but wasteful pattern, I’ll hit the book with clear goals and deadlines.
Thoughts
Firstly, No one directly says to me that I’m too much fat because there’s nothing to gain by telling the truth. Therefore, I don’t have to settle for the current status. Changes need to be done. I’ll lose my weight and keep in great shape.
Secondly, if I’m going to live like this, I should enjoy the every moment rather than being unsatisfied and study too hard for nothing. I was uncomfortable yesterday because I always feel out of place if I don’t study.
Finally, writing my thoughts in English and French is necessary to fill the gaps in my language skills. The public institution that I work for is amazingly great in the aspect of job safety; however, it doesn’t make me feel excited.
Locations
신세도기 | 서울 종로구 삼일대로17길 51 | 02-739-8114 (예약 가능) | 지도
베스킨라빈스31 | 서울 종로구 종로12길 9 | 02-733-3130 | 지도
오늘와인한잔 | 서울 종로구 종로14길 30 | 02-722-0617 | 지도
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